Mood: Content
Music: The Wombats - Backfire at the disco (Check out the video clip!)
Last food consumed:  Ginger Snap Biscuit and a cup of tea :)
About to: Post this blog and goto bed (10pm here)


So Uni is full on! Damn – I’ve not got time to watch movies so the movie challenge in on hiatus for the time being.

Uni is going okay so far – I’ve been putting in the hard yards though when I’m not at work I’m at Uni and when I’m not at Uni I’m punching out assignments!

Social life = 0

Though there’s always time for the new series of Doctor Who on YouTube – in fact I’d turn straight for David Tennant!!

Not a lot of news to report – it’s just uni uni uni atm.

Whereever you are having a read of this blog – thankyou and I hope you’re having a nice time with your life at the moment.

Be good – or at least try to be

So I got into Uni :)

I’m happy, excited, nervous, scared about ten different emotions all rolled into one. However this is it – I feel like this is the last opportunity I have to actually “make” something of my life. I don’t want to be in what feels like this never ending rut of just jobs! I want a career. So I feel I’m on the right track at least to get there right now.

However according to a percentage of my ‘friends’ the BA I got into isn’t a ‘real’ degree! Unfortunately no end of my explaining that them that you enroll into a Bachelor of Arts then pick your major from that has them convinced! So when I was at lunch the other day with a ‘friend’ who went on a 10 min rampage of how I’m wasting four years of my life doing a pretend degree. I got up and left. *Bill was already paid* and haven’t spoken to her since. I drove away thinking with ‘friends’ like that who needs enemies!

Caught up with another friend last night for dinner one who’s supportive, and couldn’t believe that ‘lunch’ friend was such a bitch and said she’d have don’t the same thing as I did (Walk out) so it was nice to catch up with her as I’ve not seen her since she moved away for work.

Movie challenge is coming along – Though I think it’s going to slip somewhat when I do start Uni.

This week I’ve watched

Super bad
Shoot Em Up **
The Condemned
The Bridge (Doco)
Vacancy

** Only got 25 mins into this beyond shit film before I turned it off!


Be good – and if you have non-supporting friends – fuck them off!!!  

It’s quite daunting to realise that it’s 2008 I woke early on the first of January 2008 at around 2am to period cramps that could quite possibly have killed a small animal! This bought on one of those – what the fuck have I done with my life moments? As I reached for the ponstan and panadine forte before rolling over and trying to go back to sleep!

I spent the lead up to New Years / NYE / New years day with my brother and his wife and their son in the new house they just bought which is a massive – with an enormous yard, swimming pool, 3 plasma TV’s, fully air-conditioned, with a jetski in the garage!

Here I am – about to turn 31 – the only thing I own is my car! (Subaru can’t go wrong!) and I’m waiting for the 10th  of January to see if I got accepted into University
Why goto uni at 30? I can hear people ask?!? Because at 30 I decided that I should “get an education” that will allow me to get a ‘real job’ what ‘real job’ I’m going to get I have no bloody idea of right now! But I’ve once again played the safety card and enrolled in a BA – I can sort out the rest if and when I get accepted.

New years resolutions are as follows – I’ll up date in a month and see how it’s going

1)    Drink more water – I look every day of 30 these days!
2)    Drink LESS alcohol – I look every day of 31, and I’m not 31 yet!
3)    Eat more fruit – Apple? What’s an apple!
4)    Write me often in my online journal – Mwahahahahahhahh I kill myself with that one
5)    If I get into uni I need to APPLY myself and get a result – I’m about 57% good at a fucking lot of things! Just not one thing can I say I’m 100% good at!
6)    Stay away from nutters – in fact stay single until I’ve completed uni – a casual shag is NOT a relationship
7)    Read more books
8)    Spend quality time with my family and friends – this involves conversation not just hanging out watching a movie
9)    See Number 2
10)    Learn new things

I’ll keep you updated with how all 10 go

To everyone who’s reading – I hope you had a nice New Years – Best of luck for 2008 in whatever it is you do

I’ve been off the net for a while as you can tell from the date stamp of this post.

My uncle passed away – and well I guess I’ve not really been in the right frame of mind to write anything or even be online.

47 is young to die considering the average male life expectancy these days is about 80

I’ll update again soon (this week)

If you’re reading this and you’re a “come back to visit” person – thanks for sticking around

So an update -

I'm working again - interesting field as a body collector (Mortician assistant)
The way I see it the customers don't talk back, and if they do then "It's a Miracle!"

I'm in another 'dark' rut in life wondering why the fuck do I bother - I read a statistic the other day that one in four people suffer from some form of mental illness be it schizophrenia, depression, bipolar etc etc and I was surprised. They put it into an equation of four people in your family unit (Mother Father Brother Sister) I have one in four chance of being the one suffering from a mental problem - I've nominated my father for our one in four though as he's just weird!

But I find an ever increasing pattern of just couldn't be fucked! I'm hard to motivate - my line of work has no effect on me at all, and I often wonder if it's making the walls surrounding me thicker, adding to the care factor of fuck all in me!

Another update is that I went out last month with the "If you're a nutter please come harass me' sign on my head again (I know I should learn to take it off before entering into the public domain!) However I just seem to attract the people who are fucking fucked in the head and want to stalk me make my life difficult and send me 20 txt messages in 10 mins (that equated to one sms message every 30 seconds!) I've since told her to fuck off - and I "think" she may have finally got the message that I'm not fucking interested in anything she has to offer as it's been a week since she contacted me her last message asking "Aren't you talking to me anymore!" Well FUCK NO I'M NOT you fucking stupid bitch if you can't get the message that I don’t want anything to do with you you're dumber than I thought!

Anyway rant over - welcome to November!

As you can see - no posts for July - that was due to be being a slack arse unemployed person who caught up on sleep, friends and doing fuck all!

But I'm back on the job now - new job - new work enviroment and I'm loving it - so I'm happy for the first time in a long time - though I doubt that will help me be more frequent in posting stuff here

Be good

She shoots she scores! I’m out of there! Yes you read it here in text

 Job = No exsistant!

 
Long story short – the whore / Gutterslag / Cunt of a 2IC got me sacked, while the 'real' manager was away on holidays!  Though technicially on paper I “Resigned”

 
Moral of the story kids!

Don’t swear at the fax machine – it has feelings you know and well it will report you to aforementioned gutterslag of a 2IC for calling it a "Fucking piece of shit" and you WILL loose your employment over it!

 
Right now I don’t give a fuck – bring on the holiday I say –

 
Time line as follows

 
July – Holiday

August – look for part time work

2008 – Goto UNI :)
 

I hope you’re well out there wherever you’re reading this from.

 
I myself couldn’t be happier – I NEVER have to see that fucking slags face again in ALL my life!

 
Wooohoo Freedom :)

Location: My Room - listening to quite appropriate music really!!
Mood: numb
Music: Amy Winehouse - Rehab

Sooooooooooo I’ve made a life changing decision this week ( well technically it was last week as I’ve been off sick with 9 stitches in my leg for the majority of this week! – I’ll talk more about that shortly)

Anyone who knows me or reads my journal / blog knows I hate my job – I’m in a position atm that I was NEVER hired for to begin with and I fucking hate it beyond all hate and to top it off the 2IC is a fucking cunt and I hate her too! So last week I went for a job interview somewhere else ( place withheld on purpose!) anyway the position was only for 2 days a week and I’m in debt with my car for $6,750 so I need a full time job so I can get the car paid off by the end of the year and also so I’m simply debt free.

Whilst I was at the aforementioned job interview I was close to the Uni so I thought fuck it I’ll go in and see what courses are available etc etc. I spoke to this lovely lady who was on exchanged from the UK and I’ve made a significant decision re my future!

Plan is as follows: Apply to goto Uni in September for next year to study Journalism and Media – If I get in (which I hope I will) I’ll find out in Jan/Feb if I’m successful. Should I be successful then I’ll resign the DAY I find out I got accepted into Uni. (Something along the lines of you can take this fucking bullshit job and shove it up your fucking arse!) If I’m NOT successful in gaining a position at Uni I’ll fucking resign anyway as my car will be paid for by then! My job isn’t helping my mental health – I’m more angry now than I think I’ve ever been – I drink more than I’ve ever drank (even when I was 18 and that was the thing to do!) I’m on Xanax to keep me “calm” so as not to go postal on the clients! – So I need to pay off the car and get the fuck out of there! I mean don’t get me wrong the people in my branch other than the fucking whore-bag gutter-slut of an assistant manager are great people to work with – the head management in their ‘ivory’ towers are a bunch of fuckers, and I will enjoy telling them to go get fucked – forget ‘not burning your bridges’ with previous employers – I’m going to fucking napalm the bridge so it’s no longer recognisable!

This brings me to my 9 stitches! - I got a skin cancer cut off the back of my leg last Thursday right at the back of my knee in the bendy bit – hurt like a bastard, and I couldn’t bend my leg for 4 days! So I spent a lot of time in bed watching DVD’s and playing PS2. I have however managed to get through all of Season One of “The Shield” – All of Seasons 1 and 2 of “The L Word” and a few “movies” I’ve been wanting to see for a while. The shied rocks and if you've not seen it - I highly recommend it. The L word - is the pure essence of what it's like in lesbian land - so if you're not seen it either I can highly recommend it also and I give it two thumbs up!!

So there you have it – Update on my life.

Wherever you are reading this from in the world, if you’re a regular and know me or a first timer I hope you’re having a great time with whatever you're doing.

Be good or if you can’t video it and post if on you tube with a link so we can all watch :P

Excuse the typos / shit grammar etc etc I’m 3 Smirnoff ice blacks down and some Xanax in there too – don’t mix alcohol with calming meds kiddies it’s bad for you!

Mood: weird
Music: My Chemical Romance - Cemetery Drive

Life sucks you into a void – you go round and round on the never ending cycle of sleep/eat/work/eat/shower/exercise/walkdog/drink/eat/talk/work/rest/play/work/work/work/work/work – I got caught in the work cycle and I’ve not had any time to scratch let alone update my journal!

So here’s the last 2 months in a few paragraphs

Feb – Turned 30 – had a 30th b’day bash – had a bloody ball!!

March – Worked – worked more – got fucked in the arse at work (What a change!) drank substantial amounts

April – My uncle is very ill ( rushed to hospital) – family called home, as he wasn’t expected to see Easter – Easter now been and gone ( ate too much chocolate and drank FAR too much alcohol!) Uncle has turned corner and is getting better ( thankfully!!) – Still in hospital though –

Currently added more to the never ending cycle by studying a course through OTEN – Medical terminology – and discovering I suck arse at it (I’ll add it to the ever increasing list of things that I suck at!)

I have hit 30 and I’m having one of those – what the fuck do I have to show for it moments – no house – a half paid for car ( bloody nice car though!) no relationship – All friends are married with kids, with mortgages (sp?) and steady jobs, and I’m thinking what the fuck is my purpose in life really?????????

Now here I am – updating a well over due journal entry – will I be more frequent in my posting / bitching – I’ll do my best!

Cheers for sticking in there with me – you all know who you are!

Well today’s the day I never thought I’d make it to 30. Strange thing to say – but it was just this feeling I used to get. But anyway – here I am 22nd of February 2007 and Sal is 30!

Do I feel any different?          Nope
Do I look any different?         Yup I look old!!!

I had a HUGE 30th B’day bash on Saturday – thanks to everyone who sent little ‘happy b’day Sal messages’ my brother read them all out. I’d post pics of the night here – but I may get myself arrested!!

Seriously though I will post some pics as soon as my mate who’s a bit of a hobby photographer who ran about the place taking happy snaps all night posts me a dvd of the pics he took.

Watch this space

That’s all the great wise words I’m parting on you all this evening – I’m off to watch LOST

Be good
Sal