Location: My Room - listening to quite appropriate music really!!
Mood: numb
Music: Amy Winehouse - Rehab

Sooooooooooo I’ve made a life changing decision this week ( well technically it was last week as I’ve been off sick with 9 stitches in my leg for the majority of this week! – I’ll talk more about that shortly)

Anyone who knows me or reads my journal / blog knows I hate my job – I’m in a position atm that I was NEVER hired for to begin with and I fucking hate it beyond all hate and to top it off the 2IC is a fucking cunt and I hate her too! So last week I went for a job interview somewhere else ( place withheld on purpose!) anyway the position was only for 2 days a week and I’m in debt with my car for $6,750 so I need a full time job so I can get the car paid off by the end of the year and also so I’m simply debt free.

Whilst I was at the aforementioned job interview I was close to the Uni so I thought fuck it I’ll go in and see what courses are available etc etc. I spoke to this lovely lady who was on exchanged from the UK and I’ve made a significant decision re my future!

Plan is as follows: Apply to goto Uni in September for next year to study Journalism and Media – If I get in (which I hope I will) I’ll find out in Jan/Feb if I’m successful. Should I be successful then I’ll resign the DAY I find out I got accepted into Uni. (Something along the lines of you can take this fucking bullshit job and shove it up your fucking arse!) If I’m NOT successful in gaining a position at Uni I’ll fucking resign anyway as my car will be paid for by then! My job isn’t helping my mental health – I’m more angry now than I think I’ve ever been – I drink more than I’ve ever drank (even when I was 18 and that was the thing to do!) I’m on Xanax to keep me “calm” so as not to go postal on the clients! – So I need to pay off the car and get the fuck out of there! I mean don’t get me wrong the people in my branch other than the fucking whore-bag gutter-slut of an assistant manager are great people to work with – the head management in their ‘ivory’ towers are a bunch of fuckers, and I will enjoy telling them to go get fucked – forget ‘not burning your bridges’ with previous employers – I’m going to fucking napalm the bridge so it’s no longer recognisable!

This brings me to my 9 stitches! - I got a skin cancer cut off the back of my leg last Thursday right at the back of my knee in the bendy bit – hurt like a bastard, and I couldn’t bend my leg for 4 days! So I spent a lot of time in bed watching DVD’s and playing PS2. I have however managed to get through all of Season One of “The Shield” – All of Seasons 1 and 2 of “The L Word” and a few “movies” I’ve been wanting to see for a while. The shied rocks and if you've not seen it - I highly recommend it. The L word - is the pure essence of what it's like in lesbian land - so if you're not seen it either I can highly recommend it also and I give it two thumbs up!!

So there you have it – Update on my life.

Wherever you are reading this from in the world, if you’re a regular and know me or a first timer I hope you’re having a great time with whatever you're doing.

Be good or if you can’t video it and post if on you tube with a link so we can all watch :P

Excuse the typos / shit grammar etc etc I’m 3 Smirnoff ice blacks down and some Xanax in there too – don’t mix alcohol with calming meds kiddies it’s bad for you!